Humans are designed to suffer.

LLL, you make a great point but the difference between the lucky and unlucky people is that the latter decided to have children even though they shouldn’t have, that’s the whole point. If people with genetic illnesses, mental issues, are in poverty, stopped having children, they would not pass down their suffering to the next generation.

It is really just that simple. If the “unfortunates” of the world just had the common sense to examine their lives and say “Jeez, my life really fkg sucks, I fail at everything I do. I’m broke, I have poor health, etc…..maybe I shouldn’t have kids” then the misery would end with them.

But who thinks like that? Most people just live in the moment and don’t plan for the future. They find someone similar who wants to ‘bang’ and A leads to B, they have kids who grow up with all their flaws and issues and who themselves hate their lives and the pattern keeps going.

As for the lucky ones, they simply happened to be born to parents who were smart, driven, attractive and successful, so their offspring reaped the benefits of their good unions. Some others have pulled themselves up by their bootstraps, they had a bad life but wanted to do well and they did through hard work.

The question is what do we do about it? In my case I recognized early in my life I was a product of two people I don’t like who should never have married. I have all their short-comings and grew up in a low-income level because of them.

The smart thing to have done-speaking selfishly was to end my life in my teen years when the profundity of my existence really hit me in its fullness and I knew I wouldn’t have a great life. However, despite all the suffering I experienced, I am actually glad I didn’t end my life because I was able to help out some people close to me.

Despite how much I hated myself and my life I decided that the self-hate was untenable and destructive. I also suffered even more socially and sold myself short in so many ways because of the self-hate.

So I flipped it around and decided to make a serious effort at life, see if I could realize some of my dreams. I’ve come a long way but still not where I want to be but I believe I should be at a turning point soon.

At some point I will really have had enough of living and seek an exit but that might not be for a while, though some days I do wish I could end it right there and then. Still I’m sticking around because there are projects I want to complete and things I’d like to do before I go.

If people are serious about dying there are ways of doing it that are guaranteed to work. But it’s also important to look at the bigger picture, what would happen to your family members if you weren’t around for instance?

I learned that my siblings would not help out my mother when she was struggling with health issues and she couldn’t go to work sometimes. If I wasn’t around to help her, she would’ve ended up homeless.

I never imagined they’d be that uncaring but I learned they don’t give a damn about anyone but themselves. I don’t like to discuss my family/personal issues publicly but I felt I should explain why I decided to live and why it turned out to be a good decision.

So this is something everyone should consider-who could suffer if you decide to end yourself and is it worth it to keep living longer. I’ll leave it at that for now.