The night has been shitty
The week has been shitty
The month has been shitty
The past too many years have been shitty and I’m really over it.
I haven’t cut in two years and i was proud of myself but tonight was a hard night.
I got in the shower, few hours later… blood.
Now I’m laying in bed, wanting the pain to stop.
I know it won’t happen but I don’t know what else to do…
I have my pills and razor next to me thinking of what to do next.
My head is buzzing, all i can think is how therapy and pills aren’t enough. Nothing is enough. I fucking hate it… Its not the first time this has happened but I’m not gonna fail this time.
I’m sorry… Te Amo <3