Society’s manic obsession with living as long a life as possible, no matter the quality of that life, is just so absurd.
I feel like my life has run its course and I am ready to go. I have had a privileged life. I worked my dream job. I ate a lot of good food. I went to a lot of nice places. I knew a lot of good people. I had a good-enough time. I was safe and I was secure.
Now I am no longer able to work – I haven’t done so in about 13 years. I am isolated. My health is impaired – I’m thankful it’s my psychological health and not my physical health, so there’s that.
But really what my life boils down to, day to day, day after day: I just worry and stress about being the building I live in being sold and me being thrown out because they can get 5x the rent and I have nowhere else to go that I could afford, I worry about being able to afford to eat in the near future, to afford healthcare.
Those things are not “if they might happen” but much more realistically, “when they will happen”.
Worrying and stressing is not living.
There is no safety and there is no security for me any longer.
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Everything you said is my life over the past 10-15 years. I just found out that my disability claim was rejected for the third time. In addition to 43 years of mental torment, my physical health is getting worse by the day. I’m hoping that one of my conditions winds up being terminal. I’ll let it run its course. It would be easier to have something take me out instead of doing it myself. If I have to do it myself though, I will.
Your story is thought provoking. Once I moved out of my childhood home, decades ago, I have been safe and secure. My health has improved over the last several years thanks to natural stuff and therapy to the point that I am not consumed with offing my self these days BUT should things start to slip with me I still hope I find it in myself to save the taxpayers a lot of money.
I agree with you and I say more, this long life must live is an idiot speech. Pure theory. Good for nothing.
I’m sorry for your future perspectives…
“You have to live, otherwise I can’t make any money off ya!”
Right, and deeply right.
Damn I agree. People are so scared of death it disgusts me sometimes… Like some people would just be able to rob and exploit their own kids and future generations just so they could stay for a couple years longer… This society is so terrified of death I think it points out that there is something horribly wrong with this society. At least legalize fking euthanasia and let people that wanna go just leave… How can it be that your government has more right to decide about your life more than yourself… this is madness