When I finally think I found the person(s) in my life to help me through hardships and show me that I can trust others again, I’m let down. Again. And again. And again. It’s to the point we’re I’m completely numb to it. I tell myself “You know it’s coming, it’s only a matter of time.” Then, eventually it happens. I tried to tell him that what he thought wasn’t true. That I just want him to understand. That I did appreciate him, but I need time for myself. He keeps thinking I’m making excuses not to talk to him. “You just don’t want to talk to me anymore.” “You always have time for yourself.” “You always find excuses to hang up on me,” things like that. I got so mad and frustrated during the call. Eventually I cracked. Giving him a snarky “GOODNIGHT (insert name here)” before I ended the call. He hasn’t called. He hasn’t said anything….
and I can’t seem to care..
At all…
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I’m sorry.. I know that feeling all too well. And it sucks.
I will never understand why so many people are so good at hurting those who care about them. The ones they should be treating the best.
I have struggled enormously with this my whole life. How do you get someone to authentically care about you the same way you care about them?
Whatever it is, I don’t have it and I never will.
I don’t really trust people, no. I’ll just have to assume people are being truthful, lol.
You probably shouldn’t anticipate it like that. I mean, it’s normal to have those worries, but don’t feed them unnecessarily.
If someone expects you to leave them anyhow, they can turn flippant, and that may eventually hurt you so much that you do leave: a self-fulfilling prophecy. And they will tell themselves they were right about the world.