Hello I think I am in an emotionally abusive relationship. I can’t tell family because they will be worried also he will know.
It is co-abusive of course. I think maybe I’m more abusive to him than he to me? And also love is there.
Sometimes I want this love to just go away.
But also I am not sure it is true. I am mentally ill. I do not trust myself.
I feel trapped and I think I will probably die because of this.
I didn’t think this would be my fate.
I can’t believe I’m one of those women.
But because I am who I am I can’t escape it.
He doesn’t deserve being trapped by me.
I thought also, my future would be different?
I was reading <this link> and half is me and half is him.
I deserve it and also. There is nothing to do.
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I didn’t read the post you linked to.
But I think maybe all decisions in this life are cost-benefit.
So: Is staying with him, betting on this love, worth the consequences you described? Personally, my answer would be “no”.
A breakup can hurt a lot in the beginning, and maybe for a long time.
But if you are truly suffering in a relationship and feel like it is unhealthy (you say you think it may kill you, and that you’re afraid of telling anyone in case he finds out), the pain of a breakup might be a comparatively low cost to bear.