i regret telling her

I’m sorry to hear that, I really am. This isn’t okay. You are no egoist, you are asking for help and someone doesn’t understand that. And that someone is your mom. All I gotta say is that she ain’t right. Suicide is not something to take lightly or be seen as selfish. Sometimes one feels like there’s no options and so suicide seems like the only way out of your pain. Trust me and our community here when we say that there are others out there who will listen and take you more seriously than how she responded. My father kinda did the same thing, I only became a burden. I dealt with it by realizing that sometimes the people closest to you aren’t always helpful for you. I severed ties with my father and even 3 of my siblings because they were toxic for me. You should try to find different people who are more understanding. Do you have siblings, uncles, aunts, grandparents? Maybe you’ve got a close friend? I would reach out to anyone else you could possibly think of? If they respond the same then move on to someone else. The whole world can’t possibly be against you. There are others out there who know what your going through, they can help.