How to deal with?

I think about those things occasionally and get pissed off at myself for missing out on good opportunities or making dumb decisions. It is true what adults tell you, life is short and moves fast. I didn’t believe it at the time (in my 20s) but here I am, middle-aged.

There really isn’t much you can do about it, but to remember to avoid mistakes and to go for opportunities if you feel you could get them. The only thing is that I wasn’t ready for kids and I know if I fell in love with some a pretty girl I met then I’d be trapped in a life I never wanted. When I was younger that’s all I thought I wanted was a beautiful gf/wife.

Once I got older and a lot wiser, I realized the rest of your life matters much more. That is getting a good education, career-preferably having money. This way you can really enjoy life and not be trapped in a shitty job just to make ends meet. Also I hadn’t learned adult responsibilities so I don’t think I would’ve made a good partner to any girl at the time.

Today though I’m much more sensible and plan to get married at some point-if my life goes better. At the same time though as they say it’s better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. So I could’ve and should’ve picked up and banged a lot more girls than I did, plus I was younger and more attractive.

I wish I my knowledge and experience of today when I was in my 20s. I would’ve made better decisions and had a much more fun/fulfilling life. My dad was a self-absorbed moron and had no good advice for me. I basically had to figure out everything on my own.

But I figure if I get at least 10-20 good years to make up for what I missed it’ll be worth it.