If you all dont mind me asking……how bad are things for you? Do you have anything aside from depression amd anxiety? I havent been here in a few months and things have been…..strange to say the least since then and i believe i am far past the point where i even have a chance at being helped. However the extrememly few friends i have, have been as helpful and understanding as they can be. Im just so tired of things being the way they are now.
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I’m sorry as far as I know I most likely only have depression and anxiety, my counselor worried about me being bipolar but I’ve never been diagnosed with anything.
It’s hell. I’ll go on and on about wanting to die and within minutes I’ll be pissed off not thinking about death anymore. Although I’ve still never been to a therapist or doctor of any sort about this.
Hi, Hope. I don’t think it’s ever too late to get help if you want to. Do you think it’s worth a shot?
Not really no. I could be wrong but I believe I would need a bunch of different prescriptions and that doesn’t include the ones I’d need for my physical problems with my back. And I really don’t want to do that.
Perhaps you could work something out without the use of prescriptions.
I have my doubts I believe (like I said never seen a doctor so I could be wrong but I believe) that I have major depression. Generalized anxiety disorder. Seperation anxiety. Paranoia. Bipolar disorder. And schizophrenia. And I think I’m missing a few anxieties.
I wouldn’t be so sure. It’s hard to self-diagnose oneself. Hell, some doctors don’t even give proper diagnosis. I would try not to think into it too much.
I can’t keep living like this though.
What do you think would help?
Nothing
Are there any times where you feel better?
Occasionally but not really and only for extremely short periods of time. Like no more then 15-20 minutes.
Is there any way you could prolong those times?
Not that I can think of. The smallest stupidest thing can change my mood and 99.99999% of the time no one has any clue that they said something to cause that.
I hope you can come across better days soon.
Really if you can afford it I really wpuld recommend a counselor, it did help me quite a bit and I was never forced to take medicine either. You also can choose to not share everything too of course. I did find having a person to speak to to be nice though.
I do understand the fear of asking for help too though, I just sort of assumed it would lead to me living out the rest of my life in a ward….
A lot of us feel the same. As for me the depression and anxiety were being well managed until I felt I had to let a family member who can’t afford the sky high rents around here live with us. The stressors brought by this individual drove me to the edge and the one that pulled me back was my therapist. All this family member has to do is speak demeaning words to a pet and I am triggered big time. My therapist is helping me take the distress out of the old childhood memories of the sights and sounds of pet abuse I witnessed back then.
The funny thing is now that I am starting see relief from this once life threatening stressor I am starting to actually help take care of abused pets rather than avoid them completely.
i’m diagnosed with depression. anxiety, bi polar, and ptsd. meds used to help but boyfriend called me a pill popper so i stopped. weed helps me a lot. if you’re thinking about suicide, please try EVERY possible thing you can before you do it. therapy, meds, weed, new friends, hobby, pets, music, video games, poetry are just some ideas. if something doesn’t work, move onto the next one. think of suicide as a last resort. i won’t tell you not to do it but i will ask that you please don’t. but if you really want to, there is no way i can stop you. i can only ask you to please don’t do it. please seek help. even if it’s just a temporary distraction. i hope you get better.
Where to start….I’ve tried basic at home therapist example I have 2 very loving cats named flora and June who are always by my side. I’m currently using weed but it doesn’t really help. I’m thinking I should try an indica. All I do is listen to music it’s my way to drown out the world. I hate the world with a passion. Everyone’s nice here unless you know them then they are all assholes. I’m tired of living in a place like this. My fiancee/boyfriend (I’m not really sure what everything’s been upside down lately) has been taking me out on dates with another and I’ve became friends with her but it’s not the same. I’m not good at writing poetry. I write flash fictions when I think about it. And i hate video games although I’ve been involving myself more in my friends life. He streams video games and I’ll occasionally watch. Just a few days ago we watched a stream together and it was kinda fun. Plus my fiancee and I have been playing saints row. So really I’ve tried everything except a therapist. And although I know that everyone would be support I’d still feel like inside they think I’m crazy and won’t want anything to do with me even though they are the ones telling me I should go see one.
Anxiety, depresion, feelings of inadequacy, severe insomnia over here (plus a lot of physical issues that grow by the day, painkillers deal with that). Some days it’s manageable, some days i have to force myself to avoid breaking down over the smallest things. I usually go to classes, work at home and that helps too (i don’t have to fake being alright when i’m at home). I can relate to what you say, because i’ve felt like i’m too far gone to be helped for quite some time (it’s been constant on the last few years tho).
I know that i have no right to make assumptions and i have no idea what your situation is, but i guess that if you have friends that are there for you and you’re still alive then you’re not too far gone to be helped (maybe i’m just being optimistic there). Something that i’ve learned over time (and that has kept me alive for a while longer) is that most of the times the only person that can really help you is yourself, others can only help you if you let them, and to the extent that you let them.
I don’t let anyone help. I don’t trust anyone. It’s hard to trust someone after being f***ed over by your parents for your whole life. The ones you are told that you can trust and will always be there for you. It’s been 3 years since I moved out and we’ve actually talked.
Oh right just though of this. A year after I moved out they told me my grandfather was dying (she kicked him out of my life when I was 10 which started the whole depression thing I just looked at her (my little brother was just born a few days ago) and said if he ever sees me crying tell him i miss my cousin. It was like I knew everything was over for me) anyway I got in touch with him and they found out. A few months later we were suppose to meet up and she was suppose to tell me everything instead I got him telling me we have to meet up a day early so HE can tell me she doesn’t want me talking to him. I was told the only person I ever cared about was dying what did you think was going to happen. Anyway that was their last chance to fix things and they blew it.