I just remembered. I was thinking about how I can’t do it, I’m too scared, but I just remembered. I was choked before, and I passed out. If he kept going, I would be dead. I can do that, so easily. It was easy. It doesn’t scare me, asphyxiating, not as much as drowning or poisoning or trying to stab myself of course. I never thought about it because at home there was nothing, but here there is a wire leading to the ceiling light, and it’s encased in a sturdy pipe. I can get a strong rope around it maybe (my belts will break, they’re too cheap). I’ll see if there is a local hardware store. I’m excited at the prospect. I’m a gross freak. Soon am will be was and I’ll be forgotten, in the nature of my blankness plainess boring failure. Wish me luck
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Please don’t do it. I read your old post. You’re not plain or boring. You’ve been through some shit nobody ever deserves to go through. You deserve better.