As much as I’ve tried and as much as i’ve sought it seems my life will end as i expected.
My past lurks in my shadow…a monster not of any man’s devising.
as much good as i fight to embrace that lead-like bolus of anger, regret, a despair sinks into the deepest pits of my spiritual bowels.
infecting every tissue with a black cancer
it’s not possible to extinguish my spirit. i will end in hellfire and damnation
or else please god just extinguish me now