for better or worse this site is my personal journal. tonight, at least in this moment, i am exultant. i mean earlier i restricted until i was shakey then binge ate. but very soon after a friend came over and…there’s nothing better in my mind than giving pleasure to another woman. it’s just the best. connecting with a brilliant beautiful someone and making her make, those noises. my third cigarette is almost done. time to drink some water, pause the music, and lay down next to her.
in the morning, when she leaves, it’ll all come back. the bullshit, the dilapidation and ennui. but tonight, jubilation, sweat, and love!