-33 years old
-not close with family
It feels like I’ve wasted my life and it’s only been two years since I’ve lost everything. Obviously I wasn’t like this before as I had friends, girlfriend and a job to keep me pre-occupied. It’s only when I was betrayed by those closest to me (which are my friends) that I feel the weight of the world weighing down on my shoulders. How do you guys go through another day living like this? It feels like I’m going nowhere with my life. I want to escape to a monastery so bad but that would also entail leaving my gf of 13 years and I dread that if I do go through with monastic lifestyle, I might regret leaving my girlfriend behind who has stuck through with me all these years. It breaks my heart to even think of our relationship that we’ve grown strong and together and in the end didn’t even get married.