Her

I keep seeing pictures of her. One of the few women ever to make my heart skip a beat, that I actually have a physical reaction to how attracted to them I am.

Of course I have no rights in this area. Rationally this is totally normal and understandable and FINE.

inside I’m torn apart. She’s had a baby, and the depression inside me is screaming “All the women you love find other men to give them children”

So what do I do with this?

I don’t know, probably go make a cup of coffee and take my morning meds. definitely that.

this life is a shit show sometimes. The only reaction I’ve got is to be a good spectator.