The doors are closing in my life and I guess the opportunities I’ve let slip haunt me and everything else that is being pursued I am not doing it 100%. I want to be different I want to be unique but I end up feeling best a peace alone but I don’t have the motivation to push through my lazy barrier. I breeze through leave things last minute and don’t have respect for myself but I feel like sometimes I kiss ass to others. in a movie I would break out do something push the barrier but I’m just alone right now with no one to truly express these feelings to but myself. I hate the idea of circles and how everything comes back to bite me how karma, luck or God has got this sense of humour fucking with me you know I can’t see myself anymore. I don’t like this person I look at in the mirror.