so lately i’ve been thinking a lot. more than the usual and i figured nothing. i feel like my head is a mess surrounded with lots of fog. i feel alone, i have 4 friends, which 2 of them live 100km away (i go to school in another city and during weekends and holidays i have to come back home because the dorm is closed), one is on vacation right now and the fourth has a boyfriends and it’s with him, constantly.
i want to go out, have fun, enjoy life but i can’t. i feel so miserable and not just because i have no friends atm, but i just feel miserable for a long time now. only a few things bring me joy, and these things are unreachable now… then my family’s always talking why i don’t have a boyfriend, i’m 17 i should have a boyfriend by this age and so on… i don’t think i’m ugly, but i don’t know… probably i don’t reach the nowadays standards of being desirable (big breasts, big butt…)
i’m just sick of it all… i want a normal life with normal human thoughts normal feelings… i’m tired of feeling so blank all the time…
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You probably dont have a boyfriend because a lot of guys are pathetic losers like me and would be scared to death to talk to a beautiful girl like you. Maybe you could try to approach someone. IDK. Im 19 years old and still dont have anyone. So I wont really help you with this.
Its really so sad that so many boys and girls are suffering caught up in their own insecurities instead of being with each other. I can tell this myself all day. I can logically tell myself there is no real reason to be afraid of girls but it just wont help. Unfortunately its a subconscious thing. As I said its really sad…
thank you, you made my day 🙂 it really means a lot to me when someone tries to make me feel better
@patheticmale i forgot to tag you in my response, thank you 🙂
Heh, no problem 🙂 . kubatibik(adsign)seznam(dot)cz – my email, u can hit me up there if you ever feel alone, bored or smth. I like talking to people online and I check it pretty much daily. (I added adsign and dot insted of the actual signs coz this site sometimes eats comments with email adress or URL idk why.)