Lying or not lying?

If you go around thanking your friends they’ll suspect that you’re probably going to end your life and tell your family or the authorities and they could prevent you from following through.

Decide what you think is best for you, the choice is yours ultimately. In my case, there were 2 occasions where I felt I had no choice but to end my life. Now for me, it wouldn’t have been wrong if I followed through and my suffering would’ve been over.

However, there were a couple of family members who would’ve ended up homeless if I wasn’t around. Of course, I didn’t know it at the time but thank god I stayed around to help them and they’re good now.

I see friends very differently though-I have much less of a connection to them than I do my family so I’d never really care what they thought. I know they’d miss me for a while but they’d get over it. It’d be like someone leaving our group and it has happened before.

I’m planning to just create a video saying my goodbyes and only sending it to them the day I commit to doing the deed. Don’t worry too much about your friends, focus on yourself and what you want. In my case, if my life gets a lot worse then I personally won’t be sticking around and I really don’t care who will be upset by it.

My only concern is that the people I care about will be fine without me and I know most of them will be ok. We’re all going to die anyway, some of us will go sooner rather than later.