So I’m seriously considering dying in a few months. Why in a few months ? Because I have amazing friends and I want to thank them for being so great by spending quality time together. The problem? They know about my depression and how suicidal I can get so they worry about me. I don’t want them to feel guilty if I die. So I want it to be unpredictable,this will mean lying about my mental state lying about wanting to stay alive. I don’t know if it is going to be easier for them, nor if lying is the morally okay way to leave them.