Outsider

I still see the light and the dark,

For we were born within both,

As we were born not by choice,

By the will of others,

Some continue to live,

While others attempted suicide,

Like me only once,

For I want to live,

But also want to die,

How does one live in this world,

For I do not know,

For the boredom,

I used to like going to the bars,

To drink alcohol,

Now since I have to stop,

I don’t know where to go in life,

No one will kill me peacefully,

Not even I could die by choice,

It is stupid to me I have to live for my own sake and for the sake of others just kill me God if there even is a god or more then one or just kill me painlessly humanity for why was I even born?

Sure I’ll try to live once more in this world even though I am smart enough to know the more I am alive the more I want to die and anyone who knows how to find me through the data what are you waiting for?

Are you amused by this? Enlightened by this or educated for this? Are you not willing to kill us I know at least someone here or whoever controls this website is smart enough to bypass the system just to kill me peacefully and painlessly so I ask why don’t you do it?

What is it the legal consequences or the ethics or morals behind it?

Or maybe you hope that I will overcome my own bullshit just so I can have a good future?