I am not going to beat around the bush so keeping this short for a later longer version. I just feel quite frustrated. I have 2 back teeth that is giving me problems and I feel somewhat too attached to them to pull them. 1 has a root canal but the one next to it is very sensitive so I cannot tell where the pain is coming from. Dentists, again, cannot see anything showing up on the x ray. Stress trigger tooth pain, and the pain can stay for a day or half a day, and dissappear. I work hard in my shifts( currently doing waiter work), and I work under lots of stress. Sore feet, back hurts, and head hurts. Looking back to my old posts, I am currently a ‘has been’ with the happy times behind me, and with no more to gain. I tried to do the right thing: brush, put on skin lotion, sunscreen, floss, but red herring incidents happened and I am stuck with discomfort and pain in my left side of my face that never went away. Some days it feels as if someone punches me; other days it feels asif i get stabbed by an ice pick. The pain is located on the top of my ear where the base of the trigeminal nerve branch is. And it is clear that dental pain causes this nerve to hurt.
I feel I failed that this happened to me. Most people my generation have such lovely teeth and at least no missing ones, I cringe to think I will get teeth pulled. Cosmetically it will reflect bad on my image, and my jawline will shrink on top of that most likely. I truly believe suicide is a better option for me, looking at the updates for a year ago. I cannot even brush my teeth without cringing and pulling my face in a frown.
My teeth is such a worry to me now for 4 years hence, and I am too attached to them to really consider pulling them. I guess it is what they said: once, your dental health is fucked, you are fucked as a human too.
And with dental pain being the worst pain ever to experience, what is the point of living under such an undesirable living standard of being mocked and feeling you gross people out your own age?
I would be scared to go out in public, and never able to smile again. I already feel as if I become an alien.
It might not make sense to you, but I hate having to live so sub par.
And no, I probably can pull teeth but not willing to live like this. I will feel like I am a disgrace to myself and with my whole family knowing I have gaps in my mouth will ruin me.
I guess I know what I need to do. Get the fuck out of here…