I’m having such a hard time taking care of myself. I eat but, mostly only once a day. I eat because food is a weapon i use against myself. My diet is limited and costs more money than i should be spending. I only shave or brush my teeth, or shower, or sometimes even use the bathroom when i desperately need to.
Sorry to have buried the lede, but, I think I’m finally giving up. I’m trying to assemble a few last moving parts but. I don’t think waiting out the winter is for me.
Why am i swiping on bumble..if someone comes over the first thing they’ll notice is how messy the place is. How unkempt I am.
I’m too sad to really care much. I mean, my whole being is a state of caring. But I’m starting to not let on how badly I’m doing. Holding my cards close to my chest. My worry about the future has completely diminished. It doesn’t matter anymore. I’m counting down my days.
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I don’t like to usually comment on things but I completely understand how you feel! I work two jobs and therefore I literally have no time to eat. I wake up at 4 go to work at 5 stay until 15:00 and then go to my next job 16:00 and stay until 22:00 and repeat. I’m going to go see my friend in a couple of months so I thought I would start this diet- I hate it. I don’t want to eat. Since I work so much I don’t have the energy nor time to take care of my body and my room is messy. Money doesn’t make me happy yet I have so much of it due to having two jobs. I’m just sad and have no real aspirations.
I genuinely don’t know why i commented but I hope it gives you a little comfort knowing that you’re not alone