Something I just wish people could understand

I just want people to understand one thing. Just because something works for one person, doesn’t mean it’s going to work for everybody. Like I am constantly hearing people telling me to appreciate all the good things about my life and I’m sick and tired of hearing shit like that all the time. Because believe it or not I’ve tried that multiple times in my life and it barely makes a difference in how I think or feel.
Like it just doesn’t make sense; like people tell me that, as if it’s going to fix my anxiety, my depression, my lack of motivation, my lack of interests, my boredom of life; like no fuck off; how is that going to fix all those problems in my life dude; that isn’t nearly enough to fix all of those problems that I just listed. And the other thing is even if something like that was going to work for me, I would have to keep trying it millions and millions of times to the point where I’d eventually get sick of repeatedly trying the same DAMN thing;so what I’m saying is let’s say a certain thing did work for me- whatever it is, I guarantee you I would have to try it millions and millions of times to a opoint where I GUARANTEE I’d get so sick of trying that I would not even want to try anymore because when you have to try the same goddamn thing for that ridiculously long, do you have any idea how nearly impossible it is to not get to a point at all where you get sick and tired of it like i’m tired of people telling me to appreciate all the good things in my life because I’ve tried that before many times and it doesn’t even make a difference at all and how I feel.
And just suppose it is going to make a difference one day; it doesn’t really matter to me because even if that were the case and it would make a difference one day; there’s no way I would have the patience to try it for hundreds and hundreds of thousands of times for months on end especially the same thing without getting sick and tired of trying it. Like I have some patience but I don’t have all the patience in the world.
so what I’m saying is I have some patience but I eventually have my limits like everybody else in the world does and I don’t know about other people but I personally cannot keep trying the same damn thing for months and months on end without eventually getting sick of trying the same ridiculous thing.
so now the main point of this is that I want to make is that trying to think about all the good things I have and trying to change how I think about something is pretty useless because it doesn’t even make a difference in how I feel so I just want people to know that; and I also REALLY wish people would stop telling me things like that and stop trying to change I think because: 1. it’s annoying and 2. it doesn’t even make a difference in how I feel at all.