I’m surrounded by horrible people and I’m becoming a horrible person. I’m tired of being abused and losing. I’m tired of trying only to fail. I’m afraid of the future in my current state, afraid of death, hospitalization, and jail.
I don’t even remember what it’s like to be loved. People hate me without ever getting to know me and they judge me based on the way I react when I fall into their traps. I’m tired of being lied to and abused, called names and deliberately bullied.
It’s okay for everybody to mistreat and disrespect me, but when I get pushed over the edge they can all say, “See, we were right all along.”
I love life, living and learning, but I need to get away from horrible people, because I’m becoming a horrible person, and that’s what makes me want to die.