I’m surrounded by horrible people and I’m becoming a horrible person. I’m tired of being abused and losing. I’m tired of trying only to fail. I’m afraid of the future in my current state, afraid of death, hospitalization, and jail.
I don’t even remember what it’s like to be loved. People hate me without ever getting to know me and they judge me based on the way I react when I fall into their traps. I’m tired of being lied to and abused, called names and deliberately bullied.
It’s okay for everybody to mistreat and disrespect me, but when I get pushed over the edge they can all say, “See, we were right all along.”
I love life, living and learning, but I need to get away from horrible people, because I’m becoming a horrible person, and that’s what makes me want to die.
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wow sounds like your going through a lot right now I know the feeling I can relate to legit everything you just said and the pain of feeling of being around horrible person in your life is really tough I know im always surrounded by horrible people who think they can treat me like crap. I know the pain of people judging before they get to know you to me people who do that are just rude and hateful and I think they really need to grow up. Ive been bullied all my life for different things ive been to 7 different schools and each and everyone ive been bullied to the point to wear I wanted to end my life but know this even at your lowest point of life just remember you have people who love and care for you it may not seem like that now but everything will get better just have faith also maybe talk to someone about how your feeling so you don’t end up ending your life your not a horrible person just a person who is going through a lot right now. I’m a 19 year old whos been through a 19 years of her life so know I believe in you and im here
I’d just ignore them and get away before they can pick you as their poster boy and ruin your life day in/day out.. they’re all just retards anyhow and you don’t need any of them.. for anything. As in, there’s no purpose to them having life. There are ways that you can escape but people will try to stop you. Well because maybe the place in their brains is damaged where they have the ability to think about anything other than this very moment . . . You shouldn’t have to fear hospitalization, jail .. that’s why I’ve got to die, my whole life is one stay after another going against all my wishes