General by headupunderdarkcloud 1/6/2019 written by headupunderdarkcloud 1/6/2019Often times, I find am keeping myself going purely for a future self who appreciates it later. 2 comments 0EmailRelated postsThis Episode Is Out Of My Control… 8/7/2020Hello 8/7/2020Disordered and Done 8/6/2020I’m hurting inside. I just want to be... 8/6/2020Help? – Ok, with Self-Hate.. 8/6/2020VI 8/6/2020Is anyone even here? 8/5/2020Methods 8/5/2020There’s just no escape, is there? 8/5/2020Catfish turned psycho, Psycho turned catfish… 8/5/20202 comments Cause of Death: Suicide 1/7/2019 - 9:59 pmThat’s exactly me right now. I’ve been fighting off the desire to commit for about 2 years. I could commit right now and it would take, eh, 90 minutes. But I have a tiny bit of hope that maybe I can have a better future even though in the last two years everything has turned to sh*t. I was doing ok for a while and then it all became as bad as it was when I first started feeling suicidal.. actually worse, but if I can get through all my criminal charges and finish my time, maybe I can afford a new car, leave town, start fresh. I just don’t know because things have gotten so terrible Log in to Reply headupunderdarkcloud 1/8/2019 - 7:05 amI guess if it comes down to it, skipping town and starting fresh could be nice.. A tiny bit of hope is huge Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribeAllReplies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.