I recently entered adulthood…I mean it wasn’t that recent but I’m 22yrs old now so I’m still kinda new. It seems the older I get, the more innocence I lose. I start learning more and more horrible truths about this world and it’s inhabitants. I can sense the negativity every waking second nowadays. I ain’t innocent from doing some horrible things myself but at least I make a conscious effort to sway away from negativity. I treat people with kindness and I really try my best to not judge people so harshly. And yes work can suck but I actually try to make the best of my time at work, even have fun with it sometimes. Yet when I try to stay positive there always seems to be a handful of people who will always try to bring me down. I don’t understand why people gotta be so bitter about life. I have had some horrible days and some horrible treatment but I wont let that negativity consume me. I have forgiven all my 10 bullies and my once physically abusive father. I live happier because of my ability to forgive. Some of these bullies didn’t even deserve my forgiveness but I did it for me, so that I don’t become that bully someday or feel like a victim for the rest of my life. I know revenge and anger won’t make me feel better…those two concepts are empty and meaningless. We like to think we’re so advanced with all of our technology nowadays, upgrading our cars, phones, video games, tv’s, and houses but we neglect our ability to upgrade our human kindness. It is possible, I’ve met some pretty negative people who have changed their lives because they’ve learned to forgive and not carry so much hate in their hearts. Children may not know much about creating businesses, selling houses, fixing cars, or even speaking in many instances but they are a reminder of how gentle we humans can be and should be for the better future of mankind. Anyways I just wanted to speak my mind.
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Alot of people seem needlessly rude and cold. I’m only neutral…
I was bullied for most years as a kid. And people used to say, ‘oh they are just kids being kids!’
Oh ok then…. if you say so
Yes, some adults are cynical and bitter but some kids can be very very very evil too like you would not believe. I feel like kids are capable of evil in the purest form. That is doing something bad just for the sake of it. Not even to benefit themselves but to just make others feel worse. I have heard a story that some kids in my country literally bullied their teacher so hard that she killed herself… Of course not every kid or every adult is like that. I believe there are still kind people in this world. Just need to look hard enough.
Idealistic young people eventually slide into bitter adults, or at least that was my path. I wanted to make the world a better place, and by God I still do, but some days…… I think that making the world a better place might require a little judicial pruning of unpleasant people out of the population.
Youth and ambition comes with a lot of things, including anger. Big change requires a long time, and that anger will sit and fester, slowly becoming bitterness. Some days are cold, hopeless and alone, and you see other people who are happy and they just make ya want to spit in their eye, knock them down on the sidewalk…. how dare they be happy, the world is so full of trouble, and the average person doesn’t care.
So i support entirely the world being kinder. It’s going to take more than optimistic words though, it’ll take a few decades of really hard work by some people that care.
Or the world will continue to disappoint, and people like me will make themselves rich enough to surround ourselves with other happy people and shut the miserable world out.
I don’t want to be bitter, but I’m in a kind of pain that I couldn’t have concieved of before a divorce, two nervious breakdowns and working for no less than 5 companies that routinely broke the law, one of which was definitely okay with killing people and made money off of it. The pain makes it hard to be nice some days, but I keep trying dang it, because someone has to.
The dreams of youth become the regrets of old age.
Firstly, you’re not an adult. Your brain does not stop developing till you’re 26.
Secondly what about becoming a realist? Sure, you can believe in santa, and god, and people with good (not selfesh) intentions, but how long can you believe all the happy horseshit? How many years of watching each hope and dream you come up with being crushed right in front of you?
Maybe you’ll be lucky and get bumped on the head hard enough to keep believing in childish things long into senility. Or maybe you can adopt some reality refusing religious belief that keeps your ears planted deep into the sand.
But the truth is if you follow rational thought, keep a skeptical mindset, and employ critical thinking… you get left with one all powerful all consuming understanding…. nothing you’ve ever done and nothing you will ever do will have one shred of meaning or fulfill any purpose. The only comfort you will find is the knowledge that at least one day your life will end and you wont have to trudge through one more second of a tedious and pointless existance.