Who among here is in need of companionship bad? I don’t know why but this feeling is building up inside me after I lost all my friends and having no one to turn to. I don’t know what to do with my situation aside from turning to the monastery and becoming a monk. I reckon from there I will get what I’m looking for, a brotherhood of sorts and having companions that I can talk to. The only downside to this is leaving my gf of 13 years, which is sort of unfair for her since she’s waited this long only for me to leave her behind. But if I have to get better, I will have to do it because it’s driving me crazy as to what my situation is. I don’t have a job, I don’t have any friends and I’m already 33 years old. I have nothing going for me. Rather than waiting just to die and rot, I’d rather spend the remaining days of my life in a monastery.