I have woken up at 3.15 pm. Again. That means I was sleeping for 14 hours. Damn. Idk why do I sleep that long sometimes. Its probably some defense/coping mechanism of my body. I normally never have dreams coz I smoke so much weed. But when I sleep this long I have them. I dream of having a better life. I dream of having someone that loves me.
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Are you on any medication? When I was on antipsychotics, I would sometimes sleep for 16 hours straight.
Man, I love dreaming.
If you dont count weed no, I am not on anything.
Okay. I don’t know the effects of weed on sleep. I just remember it made my head like a ton of bricks.
I saw your picture in another thread. You’re cute. Maybe a girl will come along someday who will love you. Heh. I’m horrible at giving advice. But you’re definitely not lacking in the looks department. Good luck. 🙂
Thanks. Well looks are not that important especially for guys. The n1 thing is confidence and I dont have that shit. I dont know how to socialize well especially with girls. Tried tinder but didnt get any mathes so I deleted it. I am too lazy to catfish and put up dozen photos of myself doing cool stuff when it is not even true. My life is kinda boring. Anyway thank you for ur comment.
The only time looks aren’t important is when you’re a sugar daddy. On that playing field money is all that matters.
And I don’t mean that to discourage you. It’s just my opinion.
I think the sad truth is that looks are important for guys, but that they aren’t the only thing. Girls can pretty much get by on looks alone. Guys can’t. For one thing, guys usually have to take the initiative, and that means risking (and often encountering) painful rejection. Also good luck making a woman stick around if you’re mentally ill and/or unemployed.
No one should have to point this out in 2019, but if you look at many, many other species, mating works like this: Males try (and compete) to impress females they’re attracted to. The females then choose which males to mate with. It’s why male birds have bright plumages, it’s why bucks have antlers, it’s why male dung beetles roll a big ball of poo, it’s why male preying mantises risk being cannibalized by females just to get a shot at mating. Etc. You would have to be a feminist to argue that something similar doesn’t apply to humans.
Looks actually matter alot to most. Sorry but that’s just how it is. I don’t like that fact, it makes us pretty shallow. (Just so someone doesn’t blast me for being hypocritical here, I care about my appearance)
Well yeah, I think in most cases, the guy is expected to provide for the woman. Honestly I don’t think it matters as long as they do what works for both of them. I know of at least one couple who is only most likely together because the guy is rolling in $$$.
I can say money doesn’t matter all I want but I was with a guy online for a short time but we both had hardly any money. How is that meant to work? Ended up leaving him for some other reason but just sayin’.
I think looks are basically just a proxy for “good genes”. Well, that, conscientiousness and aesthetic sensibility. If you never shave and your clothes have stains on them, that might indicate that you’re on the lazy side, which might not be super attractive. If you look really spiffy, that shows an eye for aesthetics, and probably a degree of self-awareness.
So basically, I don’t think it’s superficial to care about looks. In a way, it would be insane NOT to care at all. That being said, looks definitely aren’t everything. And even though I said they’re a proxy for “good genes”, plenty of good-looking people have debilitating inherited diseases, or are stupid or whatever.
But yeah, the “halo effect” means we tend to overestimate physically attractive people.
I’m not sure most women these days expect a man to provide for them, but I do think they would like him to be able to, in an emergency, and I do think they tend to want a man who at least matches their own level of accomplishment and income. I don’t believe you see a lot of women “marrying down”.
The sad truth for us men is that a lot of us are simply redundant when it comes to mating.
I didn’t think this would be it but that is what I miss most about weed. I have nightmares up out 3-5 times a week. When I smoked marijuans I never had to worry about that. 😉
I used to have nightmares as a kid (probably coz of my dad). But nothing compared to yours. Keep posting them if ya want to. It is really interesting to read although it must be terrible for you I cant even imagine having these myself. I think your dreams can tell you alot about ur subconscious.
I don’t really believe in the subconscious although I hear it is common theory. I mostly think my dreams are controlled by someone else, like a form of subliminal brainwash. Like maybe it is homophobes who want me to be heterosexual (conversion therapy via sleep), and/or perverts who want to get away with forced sexual abuse. My dreams mostly leave me feeling that I may have some creepy follower who is utterly obsessed with me that always waits to attack me when I am asleep, but I don’t know why or even know who. It could be whomever is in the dreams or some person that knows these people and pushes it into my brain. It is the least of my problems, but still just f*cked. My dad used to watch a lot of porn, must have been every night for 10 years, while never being present in anything else and of course he is a homophobe because he love love love that heterosexual intercourse!! Could be why my dreams are usually perverted. Of course I hate my father and nothing makes me more sick then those memories, but I disowned myself the day I turned 18. I only go to my ex-parents should I need money. I wouldn’t say that I have any family. I disowned myself. I am in the process of legally disowning myself and changing my name to no longer be ashamed of being a member of their name. I’ve been making my own life, although I never thought I’d be strong enough. Sometimes I think I’ll never get fully away from them. I may disown myself or I may run out of time and game over because I can’t stop myself from taking the easy way out and committing self-murder. But again, not really my greatest problem… I have no need to further document or even recall because I already laid out what is happening and the meaning of the content in the verse above. It would just sound ridiculous should I continue polling the retarded sh*t some stalker that I don’t know is forcing into my brain to witness.
Yeah agree. This guy is cute. If I lived nearby we could do something. I hope I don’t come across as a creep. I know I look online for guys but I’m never really sure if I could really be bothered with online stuff anymore. Because you can’t be physical being so far away. The main advantage of LDRs is getting to know someone very well emotionally which is a large advantage because personality is important.
Well honestly I’m not really picky just wanted someone respectful and who I can be open with. Anyway relationships are heck difficult either way. And breakups are a part of life too. It sucks. In an ideal world nobody would break up. But this world isn’t ideal.
Anyway, forget my creepy comment.
I’ve read creepier stuff on here.
Like some married old guy directed a post at another member, “@ so-&-so, you’re a beautiful woman and I’m a lonely man. Talk to me momma.”
JK. He didn’t write that last sentence. All I’m saying is, if a chick ghosts ya online then it means to leave her the f*ck alone.
Meh. Perverts are everywhere.
Why would your comment be creepy? You clearly dont know the true meaning of the word lol. If you could watch me have a conversation with any girl irl you would clearly grasp the true meaning of “creepy” 🙂 . Thanks for your compliment regarding my looks. As I said I dont think looks are all that important I mean ye there is something to it but I would say the number one things that are attractive on guys are confidence and respect that a guy has in his community. Maybe thats why girls rarely respond or swipe right in online dating coz you really cant see these things from a photo. (no one has ever responded to me in online dating so I just deleted all my profiles after like 3 weeks of trying coz I felt like a desperate unwanted fuck)
I have issues with eye contact. It never was or is natural to me. I always have to focus hard on it and I fail anyway because it looks forced and creepy and makes me look nervous af. Also I am not good at conversations because I have literally nothing to talk about. My life is as boring as it can get. Just smoking weed in my room playing PC games. Nothing interesting I could talk about.
I may live in an ideal world because no one seems to break up here. Everyone has these years lasting amazing relationships meanwhile I never even touched a girls hand (in a romantic non accidental way). I was on a date once when I was 17 and it was a disaster. I just couldnt make a move so it was really awkward and I never saw her again. Just a couple of days later she found another guy and they are together since then, it is over 2 years now. I am not even looking for a girlfriend at this point. I mean I would love to have a gf but I am focusing first on making some friends that are girls and generally get comfortable talking to them. I recently had a conversation with 2 girls from another class. I thought it went fine but she didnt even add me as a friend on facebook. That kinda hurts I mean you probably have like 600 people that you have never seen as facebook friends but you cant have me there. I never understood why girls see guys like me that are not good at social skills as a thread. Sure I am creepy and uncomfortable in social situations but that doesnt mean I want to rape you god dammit…
No. I still wouldn’t see you as creepy. I’m serious. Creepy in my eyes would be going up to me and asking for s e x. Well I’m strange because I don’t agree with s e x outside of a relationship. And I regret doing it, I only wanted to do it with someone i could be with forever and they wouldn’t break up with me -_- oh well I can’t predict the future.
I wish I had some advice because I don’t know what to say so I’ll just suggest socializing with as many girls as you can, get used to interaction with them. I really hope you can find what you are looking for regarding that, see how it goes.
I bet if I were a guy I’d be seen as a huge creep. Since I’m a girl I really fail at ever giving creepy vibes. Some girls think guys are creeps simply because they are a guy. Or if the guy is deemed ‘fat and ugly’ and compliments them, instant creep. Strong, muscular guy, oh he could never be a creep. Rather ridiculous but that’s how it is.
Maybe a silly suggestion but perhaps you could look for girls in neighboring countries if you can afford it?
Well ye I agree s e x outside relationship kinda lacks the point and I dont even see how I would get it really. I could always pay some hooker to just lose my virginity at least but I dont see the point in that its kinda stupid and loser-like in my opinion. Anyway thanks so much for your support 🙂
I can relate a lot; I also struggle with eye contact and making conversation. I think the reason women are often repelled by awkward social interactions is what you mentioned: social status matters to women, and if you struggle with the basics, that doesn’t bode well for your social status. So, basically, women aren’t just attuned to physical threats, but also to social ones. Think about how ruthless girls can be to each other. They reeeally value popularity and social savvy. Also, being uncomfortable in social situations is contageous. And vice versa: being comfortable in social situations is also contageous. I doubt many people enjoy discomfort and awkwardness.
I think you’re absolutely taking the right approach. The only way to get better at these things is to screw up and then correct your mistakes. Again and again. And I think it’s particularly well-spotted of you to start out by trying just to befriend women and be comfortable with that. I think that’s exactly what a dating “expert” would advise.
Good luck
By the way, if you haven’t already, I recommend googling something called the “acceptance prophecy”.