January 10th, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

Its so tempting to try and kill myself. I know that I’d fail. I’m tired of looking for a place. I live with my mum so obviously she needs a place too. I’m tired of being f**ked over by real estates just so they can say NO and enjoy feeling super powerful. I’m tired of dealing with people anyhow. I’m starting to truly see that life is only for the rich if you want some form of privacy. This world is too harsh. I don’t belong here. I don’t belong anywhere. I just want to live in the Republic of Mouse Territories or be dead. I feel so lazy lately but I am so stressed out as well.

You know how real estates go? First of all they list properties that aren’t even available. Secondly even when you do enquire about a property then suddenly it becomes unavailable. If they ask you to inspect, forget it, because by the time you inspect its unavailable. And the applications here to rent are extremely uptight and difficult to fill out. Only certain people are supposed to rent. Normal people.

So I guess my last resort will be to stay in some hugely overpriced accomodation for a short while (yeah that includes Gumtree). It will do until somewhere cheaper can be found. I’ve got 2 weeks until me and mum have to leave. I’ve failed. I’m forever the failure.

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