it’s not easy battling with my own mind everyday..
it’s not easy living with the desire to cease to exist..
it’s not easy thinking about death day in and day out..
I tried once to attempt suicide more or less but now I am I won’t be able to kill myself still want to I am smart enough to know for however long I am alive I will always want to die kill me I know how you feel but we won’t get death we have to live for family and friends’ sake I hate being alive sometimes.
@suicidalthoughtsbutrefusetokillmyself This is 100% how I feel as well – my family and friends (close friends) don’t deserve it – I wonder how I will feel on my deathbed one day… will I finally be happy to die or will I finally want to live.
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This could be a page from my diary, my train of thought is identical, except instead of “it’s not easy”, I would right it’s overwhelming.
Typo – write not right.
I tried once to attempt suicide more or less but now I am I won’t be able to kill myself still want to I am smart enough to know for however long I am alive I will always want to die kill me I know how you feel but we won’t get death we have to live for family and friends’ sake I hate being alive sometimes.
@suicidalthoughtsbutrefusetokillmyself This is 100% how I feel as well – my family and friends (close friends) don’t deserve it – I wonder how I will feel on my deathbed one day… will I finally be happy to die or will I finally want to live.
Sending peace and hugs to you…