It interests me where people picked their usernames for here. Some seem to have clear meaning that it reflects their depression. Others random or maybe they have a meaning to you. My name is based off my fiction name Hope. I picked it a few years back when i first moved away from home. I had hoped to be a part time writer and artist although my main dream is to open a bakery. I have so many hopes and dreams that hope just seemed to fit so perfectly. So if i may ask, what meaning does your name have to you?
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I served in the military for 10 years and sometimes I feel unknown to Everyone.
A true patriot, although may not say it, appreciates what you have done for your country.
I was thinking of a username and “once” popped into my head, and it sounded ok to me.
Mine is quite litteral, it refers to the fact that I play and imagine music but never write it down so I lose everything over time like I’m losing pieces of myself . I feel like I often am myself like a lost creepy lullaby you would sing. Something childish yet not at all innocent.
Have you ever thought about keeping a small notepad and pencil by your side. Although you may never actually go anywhere with it I’m sure if you posted a few songs on here you would get lots of good feedback. I write from my heart so although it’s typically not happy it’s still a way to express myself. I already posted one piece on here but I’ve been meaning to post more. Ones I’m sure many on here can relate to. I wasn’t sure at first but I posted it anyway and some of the responses I got actually made me smile. It’s just a suggestion and I myself would live to read some of your work.
I write music as well, and used to have this same exact problem. When you have good base melody or something, take out your phone, and pull up the camera act. play the melody while you record it. That way, if you forget, you can pull it up on the ap again and remember.
It doesn’t have any particular meaning, they are the first letters from my real name and my surname… Maybe I should have put more thought into it and choose a better username…
I like your username. It’s unique to you. I think that makes it all the better. 🙂
Thank you for your kind words 🙂
You’re welcome. I like making people happy because feeling sad sucks. And even if they only smile for one second that day at least they were happy and it makes me happy knowing I did that for them.
That’s very kind of you. Now I have to thank you once more 🙂
🙂
Before I read your post, I saw your username and thought how rare and refreshing it is to see a username here that’s not something along the lines of “depressed pathetic loser” or what not.
Maybe one day there will be a branch of internet psychology that analyzes people’s usernames as an indication of their deepest selves. Or maybe not.
My username is supposed to have an ambiguous dual meaning. You can be all done with life in an apathetic, pessimistic, conquered way. Or you can be all done in the sense of finishing something and being proud of your accomplishments. Meh it took me all of 4 seconds to come up with.
It could also have a third meaning. A more happy meaning. It could mean you are all done with your mental illness. Not necessarily suicide or just sitting there and giving up. But getting up and doing something. Not giving up on your dream.
I love birds. And I feel trapped in my body, unable to be truly free.
Do you ever spend any time in the forest or maybe a park? I find I’m my happiest surrounded by nature. I can be me and there are no humans aren’t to judge me.
I do! I love to spend time in the natural world.
I wanted my name to be ninja penguin, because it was the nickname my first girlfriend gave me. But since my first girlfriend was the one who introduced me to this site, I decided not to make thay, since we had broken up. I chose dark willow because I was writing a book that had willow in the title at the time. And my life was feeling dark.
My other account is ninjarhino l, it like a mixture of my old nickname and my favorite animal
Your name is lovely of course. It reminds people why they are still holding on
All I can say is thank you. I know what it is like to feel sad and like no one is there so I just like to help people be happy anyway I can.
Pretty self explanatory. I didnt want to use any of my existing user names from online games and this is the first thing that came to my mind when I thought about how would I describe myself.
I don’t think you’re pathetic. I’ve read a few of your posts and you remind me of my friend. I couldn’t ask for a better friend and he likes playing video games too. I think his favorite is the dark soul series and fallout. I’m not a big a fan video games though.
Thats nice of you. However I doubt your friend is smoking 2 grams of weed per day, has wasted 4000 hours on league of legends (exactly lmao I just checked it what a coincidence) and has never kissed a girl before aand there are many other things I consider myself pathetic for… I just seem to be stuck in my comfort zone in the same place in life for years too lazy to do something with it.
Actually extremely against me doing it and basically everything else I use to do. As far as the girl thing that’s his concern not mine to be posting on the internet I’ll just say not far off and the video game thing…..I’m not sure exactly but I know he plays a lot of video games and if he’s not doing that he’s watching streams or YouTube videos about them. But none of that makes you pathetic. It makes you you. If I were I’d be happy I’d never kissed…..I’ll just say the other gender because I am very happy I never kissed a girl because I am one lol. I’ll tell you the same thing I tell him. Of course he doesn’t believe me so I don’t expect you to but I’ll say it anyway. What matters is that you are nice and caring and one day you will find the right girl. Personally I’d rather be with someone that was nice and had never been with anyone before then someone who’s been with someone else. Then they would get that feeling of “they are all mine and I never have to share” and I know I can’t be the only one out there that thinks like that. I have faith you will find the right girl not just any girl.
Heh, that would be nice. I can only Hope, Dream, and then hopefully… Love 🙂
Lol that was funny. Just another charming quality for someone to love. 🙂
Thanks for the compliments 🙂 unfortunately every time I get one (not really that often) a voice just pops up in my head saying: “Nah.. They just feel sorry for you” I want to get rid of it but the idea that I suck is kinda stuffed deep inside my head…
I get it. Someone would say I’m pretty or whatever and my response would always be to scoff…like yeah right.
Change your name lol. You aren’t pathetic!!!
Heh I wanted to comment: You are not a mouse and you arenot a princess either xdd
Would that be too edgy? Probably not 😀
I am really one edgy motherfker in real life I dont know why. I genuinely dont mean it I just want to be funny but perhaps its too much sometimes.
You might get a bit fake impression of me coz I try to be as nice as possible here. After all its a suicide site so you never know what impact your negative comments may have.
I myself kinda dont know if the edgy me is the real me or fake. So ye.
I believe my edginess is mostly fake tho. I just use edgy jokes to get myself out of uncomfortable social situations 😀
How dare you say that, cute male? I’m a mouse AND a princess xD You know, in human form. Certified! 😉
Huh, I used to joke a bit but my jokes are terrible.
I don’t know if what you wrote was edgy, lol
heh I admit that was a bit weak but as I said suicide website is not the best place for my edgy jokes 😛
What time is it in Australia right now? Here its 1 am. I am probably stayin up all night coz I have to write notes for my literature lesson… I have to handwrite all notes from the whole half school year coz the teacher wont let me pass if I wont show her the fking notes and I dont take em… I mean like wtf if I pass your fking tests than Its non of your business if I take notes… Stupid school
oh wow. that sounds time consuming. I’m sorry that you have to do that. I don’t know why you even need to take those notes, why should it matter? Yeah I agree.
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If I joke I just say I’m just joking (if I remember to). Although people everywhere can take jokes the wrong way and I don’t want anyone to think that I’m making a joke of them.
Honestly I feel that I walk on eggshells because I don’t want to potentially offend anyone here. And that’s strange because I have taken stuff the wrong way before and/or looked too deeply into something someone/wrote said.
BTW What music do you listen to? Im fkin bumping this on repeat: youtube.com/watch?v=CAaickFRslI&t=1421s
Im fkin afraid Slick (one of em) is gonna overdose soon… IDK all my favorite rappers are dead so I am just sceptical… I really hope its not the case… if he od´d the otherone would kill himself and there goes my last living favorite rappers…
Hm didnt see ur latest comment. I dont care too much if people get offended with my edgy jokes (here its different as I said). Probably thats why all the teachers hate me 😀 or maybe its coz Im lazy af and put 0 time and effort in school and sleep there sometimes. Its both and probably more coz they rly fkin hate me lmao.
I was lazy af in school as well, I was addicted to world of warcraft at the time. And I was bullied most years
So… music for suicidal people and the like? ^ cool
I like some techno/trance/ game music (people think liking game music is weird)
I think not only suicidal people can appreciate this music especially in the retrospect when you think about this time in history and everythin. True its mostly about suicidal thoughts and substance use disorder but I think rap generally is and should be talking your real life out in music and unfortunately this is someones life.
I like how they started to make the album way back when they were not known and it was supposed to be named “I dont want to die in New Orleans” like they want to go on tours and shit. but they finished it later recently, when they are already somewhat famous but now the “dont” is removed from that since the fame and money didnt really make em happy as promised
fame and money seem to be making quite a few people depressed. So many suicides, they say. I have my own theories on that but I won’t repeat here. But honestly I do believe however they ended up dead, a few were probably depressed.
There’s a really overplayed pop song from years ago, I feel like I can relate to the lyrics now for some reason. I know the lead singer obviously wrote that about himself even though it’s meant to be about a woman because he wrote about his struggles through his music.
Someone sent me an interesting song months ago but I can’t even remember it now but it was about humanity…
I dont think money and fame makes people depressed. Some maybe. But I think its more about the expectation. If you were not satisfied before and regardless of your fame and money you wont be anyway. Suicideboys are named like this coz they are cousins that were tired of their life, shitty jobs or unemployed, drug addiction etc.. So they decided to make one more shot in changing their life and tried to make a change and make music together otherwise they would kill themselves together. And they succeeded but as you can see or hear rather in their music it really didnt change anything.
Yes I guess some get the expectation that fame and money will solve all their problems but it won’t.
I’m a mouse princess. (My ego is too big). I am a mouse stuck in human form.
Hope and dream, thats two things I tend to have alot of. Don’t know why I dream, none of it will come true anyway.
I admit I sort of got the idea of ‘princess’ after people started calling Meghan Markle a princess.
You’re dreams will come true but you have to work towards them. I work everyday to make my dream of a bakery to come true. And just fighting and learning to work with my mental illness is the biggest step to obtaining that dream. But I know once I achieve it I will be so happy that I did something with my life. I believe in your dreams and your ability to obtain them.
Yup, and it depends if someone has the means to get to their dream. Not everyone has, maybe they can try to improve their means though by doing stuff. I hope you achieve your dream.
I hope you achieve yours too. And everyone else one here. I hope they all achieve their dreams and goals. But remember take it one day at a time. Each day you are here on earth is an achievement on its own.
I was going to commit a school shooting. but I’ve decided not to. I still have fantasies about it, but I’m not going to do it anymore. I just decided to keep the name anyway.
I understand the need to. I hate humans. Most of them are so mean leaving people like us to suffer. But instead I will go about it the opposite way. I will try to spread as much happiness as I can before I die no matter when that is. I will fight against the evil and hope that I will have others fighting along side me until then I will fight the battle alone even if I have to take on the whole world.
I hate humans too. Mac-10 is a type of gun. the to school part is self explanatory.
hope all goes well.
I’ve thought about killing people multiple times. I would never do it though.
Every person here has thought about killing at least one person
It was the name of a fictional band I created as a pre-teen. I totally forgot how I really wanted it to be pronounced, so now it’s just gibberish.
I should change it but ain’t nobody got time for that.
I don’t think you should change it. It is a part of you whether it can be pronounced or not it’s still unique to you. And being unique is what makes you you
Aw, that’s sweet. Thank you. 🙂
You’re welcome 🙂
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I chose my username “iliketoeat” because I really do like to eat hahaha whenever I eat my sadness seems to go away. Wish I could eat all the time -_- ;-((
The first part of my username is my character name changed around with an extra letter. The last part is for wavering on whether to do it or not yet.
Put together its the music i like listening to now that reminds me so much of a time when things were not as difficult as they are now.
My username means “little clowns,” it’s an endearment for my boys.