So, last Monday and Tuesday I really wanted to die, not just the profound desire to end it I almost always have but never really put through action, but I was already thinking about all the arrangements and going through my suicide protocol. I didn’t do my thing though, and I seeked the help of my friends. Well, I didn’t, my body did. It made me unable to do anything on my own so I am forced to ask for help. My body reacts to my suicide wish by depriving me of some of my basic functions such as walking and speaking. So yeah I collapsed, it is currently hard for me to walk , when I m speaking my words don’t come or I say like cheese instead of chocolate and embarass myself because I don’t make any sense. Did this happen to anyone ?