Clocks me in at 13 years I’ve been sitting on no goal other than committing. I’ve been trying to kill myself for almost 13 years, been depressed probably 18 years. I think it’s finally almost over! I wouldn’t be so ecstatic, but I think after waiting around 13 years for the ability and opportunity to commit, I’ve finally found the perfect one. Meaning I hope to leave the house in no later than 45 days. Please pray for me. Please pray that this works and I can end my life and die in peace!! I know it sounds stupid that I’m asking for prayers, but I really need to not fail this time around. I’ve been trapped in this situation for far too long.. It’s been a long time since I sent up prayers on ending my life, but now it’s all I need. I know I will die one way or another, but I need this to be peaceful.. I cannot suffer another traumatic attempt failure!!