It doesn’t matter what I think, and I don’t make a conscious effort to care anymore about what other people think. You shouldn’t either. I have never understood people who get offended over posts [on the internet], maybe you weren’t meant to live in the first place. Because if that’s all it takes to ruin your day, you’ve clearly got no way of making it in the world. This is the internet, you can choose not to read it! Granted I’m not vouching for the wrong in the world, but people even I have some common sense to avoid the things I don’t like.
Anyway, there’s nothing worse than realizing you have no control over your mind, and lately I’ve been thinking of going out heroically. I want to get into a fight trying to help someone, maybe save someone; there’s a lot of gangsters in my neighborhood, one of them is definitely packing. Is it gonna be quick? I doubt it. But I’m realizing that I don’t think there will anything better than that considering, I mean what is more purposeful than giving your life for another. I know something’s coming, I just don’t know what. It’s gonna be big and gonna change the world. Question is will I be around to see it?
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maybe I’m just an Asshole, right?
Sounds ambitious. At least you are not trying to harm someone on your way out, like some others do. But on the other side of things, I was thinking in a way I could go out as a hero of sorts. I don’t know how common it is but there may be people all over who know there is no way out and need help committing suicide, kind of like a hit man, but for those who need help committing. You know like, maybe someone who has been dying or trying to commit for a decade or so but can’t get a gun or a likewise good way out or drive others to meet their pact partners if they live far away, like a suicide serviceman. Just an idea.