Fell ill today. Slept through the day. Everything happened yesterday was like a blur, how i tried to help myself in every way i thougt possible and didn’t do it at last. I want to get ill. Just like this,i hope the common cold would escalate into something more severe, to justify all the emotional pain, to give my family and friends a reason that they are more likely to accept. I want to go. I want to go. Please let me go while i can muster the courage. Please let me go when i am with family and pets. I want to go in my home.
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It would be more peaceful to allow death at home, surrounded by loved ones.
There will come a time this type of illness will be more understood, or at least acknowledged. All the suicide awareness programs may not be much help for those in need, but they are working at showing how common suicidality is, how the emotional pain doesn’t have to be justified, it just is.
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“how the emotional pain doesn’t have to be justified, it just is”, you are right, this is my problem, i hope one day i could persuade myself into accepting my emotional pain. Thank you.