February 13th, 2019 by Atintofgreen

I have realized there are things buried that I have yet to overcome. I wish there was a way to let them loose one at a time. When I open the cage, they overflow like wild birds with an insatiable hunger for freedom. It’s like an ocean difficult to retain, redirect, or contain. As I said its all or nothing. Sometimes the “nothingness” feels like a “better” but maybe it’s a lie that I like to tell myself. I thought I was ready to open such door and face my ocean. I took a pen and attempted to translate my subconscious into letters and my letters into words.Things did not go as planed. I ended up disturbing the clear waters which became murky and I failed to keep control. They say that our dreams are the way our brains attempts to organize information. I never dream, or at least I don’t have any recollection of what happens. That night I dreamt. I had nightmares and I also experienced something else that was new to me. I woke up in the middle of a nightmare, the thing is I wasn’t fully awake. I was disoriented and I couldn’t differentiate reality from what I was dreaming; scariest thing I have ever experienced.

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