Curious….

I’m fighting to live up until the 20th, where I’ll be fighting to try and save the relationship with the love of my life. I’m just curious if what I’ve written that I plan to say will be enough to convince her to go to counseling with me. I won’t go into all the details….. but I’ll be saying this in court. In front of a judge, her, everyone else and God lol. I hope you guys will be honest, don’t hype me up if it’s not good but just tell me what you think. I know it’s hard to say when you don’t know all the details. But this is the only thing keeping me alive right now and I’m curious if it could be enough…..here we go:

She made those mistakes in the heat of the moment. I know she truly loves me, she only acted out of frustration and would never actually want to hurt me. I don’t want to see her get punished any further, both of our bad decisions that night in the heat of the moment got us here today. If anything I want her to go to counseling with me and fix the problems in our relationship that got us here today. I want to save and fix our relationship more than anything. I was stressed over my surgery that night and the fight boiled over out of both of our frustrations. I never wanted to have to lose her that night. I wanted us to stop fighting not break up. And I am terrified to lose her today. I don’t think my heart can take it. She truly means everything to me, she’s always had all of my love and my soul breaks without her in my life. She is all I have in this world. I know we’re Worth fighting for still. I just need her to try this one time in her life for me as hard as I am for her now.

i just hope that’s enough. I hope I get to say all of it too. It’s so hard fighting for something I know may never happen, but it’s even harder to just give up when she’s everything to me worth fighting for