There is such a little point of my life. I have literally been suicidal longer than many of you been alive. I have no place in this world and have to kill myself so bad. I dont understand social media it makes me more suicidal than I already am so I haven’t used it in years. In the time it has shaped the world around me into a place I dont recognize. I’m so alone poor and ugly and incompetent. I want to die so bad I’ve been so alone and depressed and suicidal for so long. I have to blow my brains out in the next few weeks because this is unmaintainable. It’s never been. I have been in pure mental illness my whole life and I’m so beyond tired.