scared as him

I while ago I was feeling terrified. Were having another class meeting.
I hate those times because I feel anxious being with lots of people in a room.
I was so anxious and terrified of feeling left out again or feeling that I could never be like them or be part of them.
I can talk to them freely yes. I can laugh with them. If you look at it outside, you won’t think that I have social problems at all. But everytime I interact, it feels empty. Like I’m just talking to a robot just to boost my everyday social needs.
Then a friend of mine recently confessed of feeling the same depression. I was a bit shocked when he opened up to me saying that he was so anxious being in that meeting. It was the first time for him to feel like that.
I felt comforted because I thought my feelings weren’t weird. Like I wasn’t the only one. Like it wasn’t weird at all to feel like that. But worried at the same time because I don’t want him to turn out like me.

I’ll do my best so he won’t…..even if I won’t