I tend to get really closed, really attached really fast. I have this person whom I considered one of my closest friends who is basically making me feel like shit like I’m an annoying and stupid girl whining about her condition, and like I should just get over it. Thing is despite recent good news, my depression got worse and worse. Worst part is she never confronts me directly she rather implies it with degrading jokes about me or refusing to answer my questions or greetings so I still don’t know exactly what is wrong. So I feel bad and guilty. I had a crush on her, she’s been my friend for 3 years and she saved my life once. I sent her a text to give her the opportunity to call and give her point of view. If she doesn’t take it I guess I will have to banish her from my life. It will not be the first time I give friendships up, but it didn’t happen for a long time and it makes me truly sad to see that my illness is the subject of jokes and disgust, even by the people I thought knew me best.
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You see your feelings as an illness?
I don’t see you causing any problems as you are not hurting anyone else but they are hurting you, jokingly (laughing at you – not with you)
I wouldn’t trust them, don’t even waste your time speaking to her if what she did was that bad.
I just want to kill myself. But I can’t.
Thanks for clarifying and caring. Sometimes I m sure it is all my fault even if I didn’t do anything so yeah… I guess I should be more careful with people from now on. I wish you peace and good luck whatever you choose to do, I hope it will work eventually
Ya clearly she doesn’t respect you or your friendship and loyalty. People are very short-sighted, they only see what’s in front of them and not what could be possible in the future.
It’s like people who are not there for you when you need them the most. They forget all the times you’ve helped them. They also forget that prior to the rough patch you are going through now, that you used to do very well before and that you’ll get there again once you’re back on your feet.
Perhaps it’s also the influence of the media. Nobody wants to deal with their closest friends/families problems. They expect perfection from others. What they forget is that if they’re not there when their friend really needs them, then their friend won’t be there for them, in their time of need.
The key is to hold onto as many good people as you can and get rid of the bad. If this same friend of yours comes running to you one day for help-don’t and remind her of what she did to you when the tables were turned. However she probably never will come to you, because she knows how poorly she treated you and wouldn’t want to face the person she looked down upon.