I’ve had depression since I’m 12, now I’m turning 16. Oh fuck how long does it last! I’m having so much trouble explaining the emotional pain I’m in it’s awful! Even with art its hard to express such a pain. Pff psychologists make money with people like me! And I can have all the hatred of the non-depressed people, they’re just as much of a monster as me. Anyway I lost hope long ago. Depression is just an endless cycle. Apparently there are ways to break that cycle but it’s just like propaganda. It’d be best if it were true but it isn’t! But you guys are in that cycle too right? It’s just so hard to understand you’re in it. But yeah, many years wasted being depressed. Why would such tings happen if God was a real thing? But after all, I’ve done wrong things… Punishement? Unlikely.
Bref jvous emmerde <3
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Agreed. If you want to talk I got you. I’m 17 and haven’t been here for long. Hmu @ whitewolf9438@gmail.com if you want to talk.
Agreed. If you want to talk I got you. I’m 17 and haven’t been here for long. Hmu whitewolf9438@gmail.com if you want to talk.
Whoops. Thought the @ would mess it up so I did it again.
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T3R3Z1:
I, like you, have had similar feelings since the age of 12 years old. While I am 20 years old now, I do know that there are other members on this website that have lived a majority of their lives (in the surplus of 20 years) without hope. You are not alone. While the pain may never go away, life is as it is and life is what you make of it.
I hope that you find refuge in some aspect of your life, such as your artistic ability or other things you enjoy pursuing.
Good-luck on your journey.
-Wolf
Do you still have those feelings?
I’ve been trying to kill myself since 12 years old. I swore to myself that at the very latest I would live until 18. I’m 24 now, but all I think about is how I failed at the only thing I wanted and how I’m alive for no reason. I’ve never enjoyed my life.
whats the only thing you wanted to do?
Kill myself at 18.
Right, why kill yourself at 18? I mean who the fuck cares what age we reach before we die. We’re all scared of death.
17 is the move. Not too old to have too much responsibility, not too young to make rash decisions. I thought about things logically and catching the bus seems like the best move especially with school not working out.