long time relapse

  March 11th, 2019 by DreamCatcher

im back to where i started. years ago i self-harmed, i covered my wrists and forearms with cuts, moved on to my thighs and upper arms. i stopped. i was around five years clean, with three of those being with my then boyfriend. now i feel as if im losing everything. 

im cutting again, im drinking almost every night, i have some acid waiting for me at home. i always told myself i would never be this person again, yet here i am. 

i know i should stop, i know i should seek help. i think about killing myself every day but i know i wont actually do it. i feel empty, depressed, black. 

i should go see the school counselor, but what if they judge me? 

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