im back to where i started. years ago i self-harmed, i covered my wrists and forearms with cuts, moved on to my thighs and upper arms. i stopped. i was around five years clean, with three of those being with my then boyfriend. now i feel as if im losing everything.
im cutting again, im drinking almost every night, i have some acid waiting for me at home. i always told myself i would never be this person again, yet here i am.
i know i should stop, i know i should seek help. i think about killing myself every day but i know i wont actually do it. i feel empty, depressed, black.
i should go see the school counselor, but what if they judge me?
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If you can talk to someone then please do. Im right there with you going from ok to back to square one. Not sure what advice to give you but I wanted you to know you are not alone.