Last 6 month were extremely stressful for my own experience, and a lot of fears or other worries of mine, have re-appeared.
I have started playing idiotic games on the computer in purpose of escaping reality. I have ditched my studies and fell down in the final exams.
In my own perspective the last experience was harsh enough to deduct my self esteem and many other aspects. Now I have to deal with the consequences and find solutions.
So what is my plan?
Well first – slowly accept the idea of harsh reality, and tough problems.
While doing the first step, I am also coping with my urges of “running away from the reality” – and instead , I am dealing with my own problems by staying focus on DOING the solution.
In addition, I have brought back few habits that I have seen helping me progress,
|||| I shall state that the progress I have seen, wasn’t indicated by me, but was indicated by outside perception, OR, how people see me, and how good am I functioning in many aspects of life [ example: social places, friendships, hobbies, work place, self hygen, doing sports, eating habits and so on…] . ||||
helping me progress, as such: reading a book (thus increasing my ability to read, I have dyslexia), working out casually (helps fighting depression or sadness, more time around people so feeling less lonely, and creating better physics thus helping increase positive feedback by people around), expressing my self more loud and more often (as for: asking questions in class, taking a step to talk with friends, making conversation with anyone that I can think of).
In addition, in order to deal with the sadness and loss that I feel due to recent events, I decided to both write down my thoughts, and play the guitar and sing more often. Thus, I have a healthy way of expressing my feelings. I hope to achieve further on, a more open mind set, and perhaps be able to talk about my feelings with close people to me.
I have shared with you this personal note. I hope it can help you, or at least make you feel it was worth reading it.
If so, you are more than welcome to comment and show me that there are people out here.
Stay strong, Be brave,