I spent some time today scouting various locations to make my exit, and I’ve narrowed it down to about 2-4 places. I don’t know when I’ll take that last step, but at least I have a good idea of where I will…
I was thinking I would do that today. How strange.. what type of place did you find. I’ve always thought middle of nowhere so they (whoever hired to look) wouldn’t find my body but that was when I thought I was going to be killing myself by gunshot. Now I’ve got to use a different method (I can no longer purchase guns from the gun stores) so I’d probably have to anticipate them finding me. Which won’t be much problem as long as I’m dead when they do.
There’s so much unpopulated area where I’m from so it might be a bit of work just to settle on one place. I want to commit today but I don’t want to rush it when there could’ve been someplace better to commit. Does it matter when you’re dead though?
What type of place did you find?
I was thinking there’s this canyon by the lake 13 miles to the south. I had attempted to commit there by jumping off the cliff but I couldn’t…. I also suppose there’s this town about 2 hours from where I live that I just visited it has a population of about 200. And lots of empty space along the highway if I feel like traveling far to commit.
That largely depends on the method you intend to use, and the type of are available. For me, it’s likely going to be hanging, and I live in a pretty urban area, so I can’t really travel too far. My leading location at the moment is one of the bathrooms at my local community college, though that could change if I find a better place.
I had to pay A LOT of money to get my suicide location just right. I always knew it would have to involve vehicle transportation so I could commit outside of the town. Which isn’t required, but ideal. (Hate this town by the way) I’ve been ready to commit but then they took my license I’ve had to pay around 10,000$ hard cash to be able to keep my suicide in place. Now I just don’t know if I can get the second piece to the puzzle, my weapon. If I can’t I will have to use carbon monoxide inhalation or an exit bag. But right now I’m just hanging out for a bit trying to pay some more bills and waiting until I’m ready to make a break for it. I don’t have much to live for. Don’t know how much more I can take before I’m at the end of my tether and just give up. Dunno cause I’m flat broke for three weeks now until pay day. Can’t say if I won’t snap in those three weeks and commit in my grandmoms backyard.
I found a very…. promising location this week. And I wasn’t even looking for! I wasn’t even thinking about it. I just ran into it but it gave me new hope. The Only downside is that the place is like a local suicide hotspot, so police always keep an eye on it. Probably I will not be able to chill and drink my last bottle of vodka there, as you gotta be quick, but… is the best I can get right now.
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I was thinking I would do that today. How strange.. what type of place did you find. I’ve always thought middle of nowhere so they (whoever hired to look) wouldn’t find my body but that was when I thought I was going to be killing myself by gunshot. Now I’ve got to use a different method (I can no longer purchase guns from the gun stores) so I’d probably have to anticipate them finding me. Which won’t be much problem as long as I’m dead when they do.
There’s so much unpopulated area where I’m from so it might be a bit of work just to settle on one place. I want to commit today but I don’t want to rush it when there could’ve been someplace better to commit. Does it matter when you’re dead though?
What type of place did you find?
I was thinking there’s this canyon by the lake 13 miles to the south. I had attempted to commit there by jumping off the cliff but I couldn’t…. I also suppose there’s this town about 2 hours from where I live that I just visited it has a population of about 200. And lots of empty space along the highway if I feel like traveling far to commit.
That largely depends on the method you intend to use, and the type of are available. For me, it’s likely going to be hanging, and I live in a pretty urban area, so I can’t really travel too far. My leading location at the moment is one of the bathrooms at my local community college, though that could change if I find a better place.
I had to pay A LOT of money to get my suicide location just right. I always knew it would have to involve vehicle transportation so I could commit outside of the town. Which isn’t required, but ideal. (Hate this town by the way) I’ve been ready to commit but then they took my license I’ve had to pay around 10,000$ hard cash to be able to keep my suicide in place. Now I just don’t know if I can get the second piece to the puzzle, my weapon. If I can’t I will have to use carbon monoxide inhalation or an exit bag. But right now I’m just hanging out for a bit trying to pay some more bills and waiting until I’m ready to make a break for it. I don’t have much to live for. Don’t know how much more I can take before I’m at the end of my tether and just give up. Dunno cause I’m flat broke for three weeks now until pay day. Can’t say if I won’t snap in those three weeks and commit in my grandmoms backyard.
I found a very…. promising location this week. And I wasn’t even looking for! I wasn’t even thinking about it. I just ran into it but it gave me new hope. The Only downside is that the place is like a local suicide hotspot, so police always keep an eye on it. Probably I will not be able to chill and drink my last bottle of vodka there, as you gotta be quick, but… is the best I can get right now.
Is it a place to jump?