i sit in the darkness of my room whilst my favorite playlist is playing. it’s 2 am in the morning, i’m awake staring into the distance and at the night sky. thoughts are flying through my head, the voices are screaming, i am silent. i wish upon a falling star to disappear. i think of the peace i would feel if that would happen, i pray for it. i wish i could stay in this moment forever, i don’t want the sun to rise… i am such a mess
“whatever happens, know that i will love you forever and be on your side no matter what happens. even if you harm yourself or kill someone, i will love u, love me even if i make a mistake.”
i’m sorry, i just couldn’t tell my best friend this, scared that she will leave me.