I went counseling for the first time. I thought this was going to give me hope and at first it did, it felt like I was taking a step in the right direction. except I can’t tell them how I really feel. They have policies and if they think I could leave and kill myself then they would have to do something about it. If I was to be completely honest with my counselor, I would probably be hospitalized because the idea of ending myself is something I think of every day. When I told her I had been depressed since age 13 and had never seen anyone for it, she said it’s never too late but it feels like it is. Im over this life. Ive dedicated the past two years of my life, despite being depressed and just wanting to stop, to fulfill my dreams I’ve had since I was young, but yet here I am, exactly where I wanted to be, but yet id rather be dead still.
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I didn’t think I would live this long. I don’t wanna be here. I think you got it pretty bad if youre getting counseling.
Beware of what you say. They can have you cornered and medicated, as in a shrinksville condo. I thought I trusted. Was wrong.
The evolution of this era, bore the crusaders, which once were, they have banded back together. The contract in which has been defiled. Heroes of righteousness, surrounds me, now.. at my doorstep. The story, of, God, we will make it. Erik, The Red! Shall, destroy, you! Vile! At once, and for all!
The white, stallion, has been here all along. Us.
And he, in which will do so, in accordance, shall, become, the new, King, of David.
I agree with Gary, they will slam needles into your skin If you say anything wrong or misbehave after you’ve been cornered.
(Just between us, I’d avoid that sector of business entirely, psychiatrics and run as far away as you can, no matter how bad you think you have it.)
If I learnt one thing I’d learn you can heal yourself better than any professional stranger could while on that type of protocol. The practice could be deemed risky, serious, and dangerous so may be prone to be overly reactive in an office setting.
Forsaken, betrayed, and in such, was the sense, killed to death. Ultimate, obedience, what was, there, more, now, to decipher; that is now, and, now. With the word, I will stile, myself, into the kingdom, of. Architectural, but I could not, ponder, further, such, the design, of. But, God, was dead, just, like me.
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entering, scripture, divine intervention, revelation
I am, messiah, and procured son, of, the architect
In the beginning, it was only, just, God, and, I, in a first, great, duel.. God, versus, man; not only, were we doomed, but fated, from the start, until, the end.. it was a supernatural war, but, like, a mistake, which was borne. It was the last, dynasty, against, all. We shall, come forth, with our rhinoceros. The most, passive, and the broad. In which, that lead me to think, that, something, higher, were obscuring.