My slide started 5 years ago. Wasn’t making enough. Then I got arrested 3 years ago. Then I was fired. And for the past year I’ve been unable to get hired because of the arrest, even though no charges were brought. I’m in the process of getting the arrest sealed but its not coming soon enough. Supporting a wife and three kids. They don’t know a train is about to hit our family (figuratively). I’ve just run out of money. My cards are all at tilt. And I have a tax bill to the moon. The truth is I was never very good at anything, and now I just feel like I can’t raise my family anymore. I’m not that depressed. I’ve never been afraid of deth. I’m just disappointed, and I feel guilty for letting this happen to us. My kids will be damaged for their entire lives. My wife is strong, and she’ll meet someone, I hope, that will care for all of them.
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i’m so terribly sorry life has treated you this way, and from what i can see you really don’t seem like you deserve this, but neither does your wife and kids. i believe your wife loves you and you should talk to her and express how you feel. you should stick around for a while longer and see what happens. you never know.
goodluck.
I’d say there’s always a way. When i was homeless, i started doing pornos on pornhub and got money from there. You could be a male stripper. You could make something out of nothing
I was arrested 3 years ago, 3 times in 5 months then last year I was arrested 2 times in 2 weeks. I try to just forget about. But it’s made me very distrustful. I feel like someone is following me insidiously. The only thing about the arrest that was horrible was I’ve had to pay them around 10,000$ (I was only 21 and I had no money at all my entire life) then I started getting attacked sexually and that was happening just a few times before my arrest but it’s happened about 150 times since the arrest. And of course I had no way to get away from the attacks, I had no way to drive anymore and I lived out in the middle of nowhere. So the whole two years I couldn’t drive I was being viciously attacked. Now every time I go out driving I worry I’ll get followed, arrested again. Whatever, I see no point behind it.