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by blankbanshee

last post was:Right so, I’m in love with this boy who lead me on constantly, made empty promises and talked to other girls while I was with him, but I’m still hopelessly in love with him after 1 year of us breaking up, he still says he loves me which is why I kept holding on to this hope that one day we’ll be together. I think I’m finally realising that won’t ever happen, and its breaking me to be honest. I’m so worthless that someone who says he ‘loves me’ but treats me like dirt is someone I envisioned my life with. It feels like this love will never stop hurting me. At first he made me feel special, helped with my bipolar, but in the end he was just saying sweet words to forfill his Messiah complex. how do I break free

i realize how dumb my last post was, sorry for that. i cant seem to decide if i want to kms or not. in the day when im with people im happy, but at night i turn into a different person. my lonely bedroom swallows me and i see how worthless i am, although i dont think i can say goodbye to my bestfriend, i dont think i could say bye to my cat or sister or mum or teachers. im stuck in the middle at the moment so lets see how that changes.

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blankbanshee 4/1/2019 - 5:52 pm

also i need to stop crying, my eyes puff up

chiliandlime 4/1/2019 - 9:40 pm

you aren’t worthless. maybe you haven’t found your career or passion, but every day you’re creating something or making someone’s life better by just being in it. just surviving is a victory, even if you don’t do anything all day but breathe. you’re still here and you’re worthy of life and happiness.
hang in there, for your friends and family, but also for yourself. give it a little while, things could change overnight or next week or next year. it’s worth sticking around to find out.

rivets 4/1/2019 - 10:49 pm

It’s OK. You posted something that was on your mind, and your thoughts don’t belong to anyone but you. You don’t need to apologize for having things bouncing around in your head that want out.

Cause of Death: Suicide 4/2/2019 - 8:40 pm

I don’t have any best friends, I never have, and I feel as empty and ready to die in the day time as much as in the night time. I don’t even have anybody to say goodbye to. I just hope I can commit I seem to be incapable.

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