last post was:Right so, I’m in love with this boy who lead me on constantly, made empty promises and talked to other girls while I was with him, but I’m still hopelessly in love with him after 1 year of us breaking up, he still says he loves me which is why I kept holding on to this hope that one day we’ll be together. I think I’m finally realising that won’t ever happen, and its breaking me to be honest. I’m so worthless that someone who says he ‘loves me’ but treats me like dirt is someone I envisioned my life with. It feels like this love will never stop hurting me. At first he made me feel special, helped with my bipolar, but in the end he was just saying sweet words to forfill his Messiah complex. how do I break free
i realize how dumb my last post was, sorry for that. i cant seem to decide if i want to kms or not. in the day when im with people im happy, but at night i turn into a different person. my lonely bedroom swallows me and i see how worthless i am, although i dont think i can say goodbye to my bestfriend, i dont think i could say bye to my cat or sister or mum or teachers. im stuck in the middle at the moment so lets see how that changes.