I’m at this point in my life where if I don’t get any affection soon I may finally end myself. I don’t know the meaning of love. My parents hate me. They’ve abused me since I was a child. They’ve always ignored my tears, called me names, pulled on my hair, slapped my face and kicked my back. Those actions have made me very anxious of people in general. I’ve started to isolate myself from everyone so I wouldn’t get hurt anymore. And I’ve been fine with it for years but recently I’ve noticed I’m starved for company. It’s come to a point where it’s hard to cope with it anymore. I feel like I’m going to die soon. And you may think ‘What’s the problem? Just go out to people’. I’ve tried to but I’m a very shy and quiet person and it seems like nobody wants to be friends with people like me. They constantly avoid me and stand me up. The fact that I don’t take rejections that well doesn’t help. Every time I see people with their friends, family or their ‘other half’ it makes me so depressed. I want to be normal and have a normal life too…
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I don’t know if I can provide what you are looking for, but if you need a friend I got you. Just let me know and I’ll send you my email. Not that it should matter, but I’m 17. Sometimes it helps talking to someone around your age.
I’m really happy you’re okay with being friends with someone like me. It means so much, you have no idea. But we’re not exactly the same age, I’m 22. So I don’t know if you’re okay with it.
It’s cool. No matter the age, it’s nice to make new friends. My email is Whitewolf9438 at Gmail.com.
John Cacioppo is an expert on loneliness, and I believe he recommends volunteering to alleviate it.
johncacioppo.com
Wow. Just found out he died last year. How sad.
Dayummmmm. That sucks. What were the odds.
This is so sad 🙁
I am such a teenager. I swear.
I totally understand you, ‘ just go out to people’ resonates with me. Like how why i am just not made for going out at least it feels that way. I felt the same way before that it’s not necessary to live because who will ever love me and does this situation ever get better?
If you wanna chat just write me
I’d really love to chat. I’m in so much pain that I constantly think about suicide. But for some reason, deep inside I don’t want to die. I’d like to become friends and especially with someone who feels/felt the same way.
Sry that i reply so late. Just the last few days I had the realisation that I can feel the evolutionary urge to live. And it is good to have an counterpart to the suicide thoughts which I want to belive make me more free. Sry if this sounds idiotic.
What kind of pain are you in fearandnofeeling? And yes I would also like to make friends with somebody how shares the same thoughts too.
Hope to hear from you soon 🙂
Sorry it has taken me even longer to reply 🙁 That’s really good to hear that you want to live after all. And no, I don’t think that sounds idiotic at all. We all have the need to relate to someone. If you’re still interested in talking, here’s my email – rhyrie@tuta.io 🙂