Any port in a storm they say. A safe port, a safe haven for me is pot. The chances of me taking my life when I have access to pot is minimal, not impossible but minimal. My experience has been marijuana placates the suicidal mind, it acts as a balm, the sheer pleasure of the sensation produced keeps suicidal thoughts at bay. I haven’t smoked in a month so my tolerance is at zero. Pot, like any substance may be a fools paradise in the long run but if you’re seriously suicidal you might find some relief.
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A balm. I like that. Kind of a distraction. I can’t spend my life high on pot, but really I can’t see myself actually killing myself while high (probably because I wouldn’t be capable to complete such a feat while high, but I probably still am thinking about it in the back of my mind 24/7.) I think about my uncle a lot apparently he was hooked and using heroin for twenty years before he overdosed. They say it was an accident but I secretly think he did it on purpose because his life wasn’t really that great. I don’t think he was ever married, he never had kids, all he had was a “girlfriend” that passed from a heart attack a year or so earlier. He spent some years in jail and apparently his parents treated him like a black sheep when he was actually a perfectly decent guy. I am a pot smoker, but sometimes thinking of him makes me want to get hooked on heroin. I want to do kind of what he did and commit but maybe by heroin overdose, just much much earlier than he did. I think he was 50, I am 24. But why continue?
i say, whatever works for you. it’s legal here in canada, and i heard that some of it iis pretty damned awesome! xox
lucky you. i wish i knew where to by it in my town, plus i’m a girl so i feel really awkward to go around asking where to by some. but i really wish i could, i’ve tried before and i’ve never felt better during the moments i was high.
its easier than it looks, just ask friends, someone is gonna know someone that knows how to buy it, im using it for about a year now and i have to say, its doing the trick for me, gives me a moment of pleasure, really good.