Hey, hey look its me. I’m still here. Wow. Where to begin?
I was going to kill myself in december. but the more i read about the method i had chosen, i decided i couldnt do it. that manner, the only feasible manner i could and can currently find, is alas, unconscionable. But so is my existence.
I wonder if i could crowd source those i have alienated over the course of my life for the money to buy some better means of suicide? Because that’s what I’ve been up to. Alienating everyone. Getting sexually assaulted by one of my girlfriends, twice, breaking up with both of them. I have no energy. I have no control. I hurt myself with food every day. I can’t get the help I need, i’m going nowhere quick. quit cigarettes though.
I have nowhere to turn to and no one to talk to. So, i talk to yall here.
whats everyone been up to the last few months?