For me its dangerous. My thoughts take over and I get so sad I can’t help it. It’s unusual fo me to be scared of my own actions because im always the one in control physically but I want to self harm so bad. If anyone on this website knew about me they would think nothing was wrong. I just finished my first year of college and I’m in a sorority. But at the center of soul there is a deep, dark sadness I will always come back to when I am alone, that I constantly carry with me. Im finally scared one day that sadness in my soul will take over and I’ll lose my shit and make a bad decision.
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Hey, i dont know your situation and all, but if you have any friend or someone close to you talk to her, if you are afraid to say this then say that you are down. Life sucks and can make a lot of pression on you, if you have someone you love of something, try to get it, love sometimes saves you
Im being a hipocrite saying all those stuffs but its true
I don’t know you. But I do know the feeling you’re describing. I’ve been told before loneliness is the worst feeling in the world but that’s a lie. The worst feeling is being in a room of people and feeling like none of them know you exist and you could just disappear without anyone noticing. Like you have this black hole deep in your chest and no matter what you do you can’t fill it and it only pulls everything you care about and love into it and destroys it. I’ve made the bad decision though that you’re talking about. I didn’t try for the final sleep, but I tried to talk to someone who didn’t understand. In a way, I think that’s worse. And it’s a horrible feeling when you realize you’ve made that mistake. But you have to keep going. Because chances are good you will find someone else out there that understands. There are seven billion people on the planet; chances are good that there is at least one other person out there who has gone or is going through something very similar or the exact same as you. You just have to hope you’re lucky enough to find them and wait around long enough to give them a chance to find you. So keep hoping and keep waiting. It’s all we can really do for now. But one day we’re the kind of people that change the world.