HAPPY 9TH BIRTHDAY!!!!

i know its a few hours early but i just couldnt wait anymore.

I know you won’t see this but I just wanted to let you know that you mean the world to me and I would do anything for you. I wish with all of my heart that I could be there for you on your big day. Happy 9th birthday little brother. I promise that when you are older I will explain it all to you. I just hope you understand why I’ve been gone for all these years. Trust me, I dont want to be. I want to be by your side watching you grow up. I taught you how to count. I taught you your colors. I was there when you started walking. I remember I’d be baking and you’d love to help me. I remember your first day of kindergarden. Sadly I have to miss a lot. It tears me apart not being with you. I think about you everyday. I think about all the fun we use to have kicking the soccer ball in the yard. Playing badmontin in the field. I remember that day you wanted to go see our neighbor and I said ok. He was barbecuing and offered us some then we went back and told mom we dont want supper we already ate. I remember your 3rd birthday. You were so sick and so run down but you loved your little cop car. And you drove it no matter how you were feeling that day. You ran into the house and asked us to move it. Lol. I remember that when you cried you would ask us to blow your eyes and it was the cutest thing. I remember going trick or treating. I remember christmas. I remember easter. I love you little brother and I hope you always remember that. I hope you have the best birthday ever, until next year anyway 🙂